Don't forget the others.............

Been thinking today.  Anxiety attacks and depression are a real pain in the arse for me.  But what does it do to the people close to me?

I owe my wife a lot.  She puts up with my constant low self esteem, anxiety, and depression issues with the patience of a saint.  The fact that small, seemingly insignificant things can appear magnified when wearing anxiety spectacles make seemingly pointless events almost explode in a massive blob of worry. 

My wife probably wants to smash me in the face with a large hammer sometimes.  I probably don't recognise the problems anxiety attacks and depression cause others.  But when the dark cloud arrives,  it kind of becomes all encompassing.  In some ways I wish I could be more like my wife.  Not in that I would like breasts, and the ability to give birth to children (although I imagine that the magazine deals would pay a few debts) but would like to attack the day with confidence and vigour.

I am grateful to my lady wife, my parents, and my immediate family for their understanding and support.  Don't get me wrong, I know people suffer far worse than myself from these things but support helps to hold you up, until you stand on your own two feet.

I guess when thinking about this whole thing, you do have to remember it isn't always as straightforward.

Now.... best go and hide all the large hammers from my wife.