So what now?

So now I've let the cat out of the bag.  The monkey on my back doesn't feel as heavy.  I expect there will still be times when he pokes me in the eye, scratches my face or does a little pee down my neck, but I must admit to feeling much 'lighter' now. 

I'm grateful for the messages I have received, it makes me feel like this was something worth doing.  It has given me a fresh impetus.

So what now?  Today, I've kept busy.  The doctor told me the mind can only focus on one thing at a time, so keeping busy is a good way of settling the stormy seas of anxiety.  Cleaning.  Kept it simple, sorted the cupboards in the kitchen.  Properly.  Not like I usually do and pile it into a corner.  In a weird way it was interesting.  At least to realise that at some point I had an unhealthy obsession with Febreze.  4 bottles!

Been thinking about the points I made in yesterday's post.  I want to say that I am not doing this as some sort of method of gaining sympathy for this 'monkey on my back'.  I wanted to try to change the way people think, act and react to mental health issues.  I know i am not in any way some sort of Bono shaped campaigning magician. Small steps still make changes though.